Fun Family Blog

Wy went to school today without the tears. He went without complaining. Yesterday he found G at lunch, they played. I am so happy that their lunches overlap and they have time together. I think this will calm Wy’s nerves and allow him the time to make friends without the tears. I strongly believe that this is what he needs right now, his big brother. G is making friends every day. Wy will see this and hopefully begin to talk more and open up with other classmates.
This has been such a rough week. I am emotionally exhausted but today I am smiling. I know it will be okay, I always have but after today I am allowing myself to feel it.

I am scared! I am scared what this school year holds. It’s hard to make someone see something that they don’t want to see. If only I could put some other persons eyes in her head for an hour, she’d get it. She would see what all her loved ones see, even Wy sees it. It’s exhausting knowing she doesn’t get it though she plays it off as she does.! Last I checked I wasn’t stupid.
I want her to have a fun high school experience but not with them. Nope, the more I learn, the more I see the less I like. There, it’s out there, I said it.
I have to wonder what goes through a teens head when they take the photos they do and then plaster them on the internet. I don’t want that for my daughter. I refuse to let my daughter behave like that. Even if they are “good” girls they portray themselves as “bad” girls and the rumors are going to fly at that high school. I don’t want those rumors to include JJ. I am done playing games. We are the parents and it’s our way or no way, whether anyone else likes it or not. I am not out to make nice or kiss butt or wiggle around the truth. I am out to help my daughter be successful and happy and respectful. I don’t want her to think it’s okay to yell at anyone, I don’t want her to think it’s okay to lip off to her elders or friends or friend’s siblings. I see it from her “friends” and I don’t like it. It’s not “normal” teen behavior. If my daughter ever yelled or raised her voice to me or anyone she’d lose that phone, facebook and dance classes. She wouldn’t go anywhere on the weekends either. I guess you could say it would be just like this summer was for her all because she disrespected her parents. Some might think our punishment was a bit harsh but after today I don’t think it was harsh enough. I know it’s going to be a slow process but it’s eating me alive in the mean time. I have enjoyed JJ this summer, she’s looking at colleges, planning her future and dreaming again. I am scared once she’s hanging with her old friends that is all going to change due to their influences. I want her to find friends that influence her in a good way not in a way where she doesn’t care.

Not only am I scared but I am hurt. I feel like she’s listening but doesn’t really care what I think. I feel like I tell her my feelings yet she has nothing to say about it. It’s heart breaking. The excuse “well she’s a teen” isn’t going to fly with this mama. Turning 13 doesn’t give anyone the right to be disrespectful. I was 14, not that long ago, and I can be super mean and play hard ball if pushed to do so.

The joy of parenting continues! I am off to tour the new school tonight. This will be the deciding factor of whether the boys ride the bus or drive them.

So many vacation photos. I am slowly going through them all.
School starts on the 16th, we have been busy gearing up. I am excited and nervous. I hope JJ loves high school and makes new friends and reconnects with old friends. I hope the transition for the boys is a smooth one. I hope T doesn’t puke during lunch. We went to T’s Kindergarten assessment today and he did great. The teacher,not his that we know of, just gushed over him. Everyone loves T. She also said that she was crossing her fingers that she gets him in her class. I hope so too because I really liked her.
I love summer but I think it’s time for it to be over, the XBOX is starting to give me a headache.

This will be a first day to remember because my first born starts high school and my baby starts kindergarten….how is that fair? I am going to be a mess.