Monthly Archives: December 2008

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Last photos of 2008….

yes, its new years eve and here i sit watching the boys play the wii while i upload photos to post.
we went on an adventure today. we saw two coyotes, it was so cool. they were right there 20 feet from the burb. we also saw a white bird…what kind of white bird you may wonder. if you ask T is was a white duck because on maggie and the beast there were white ducks so it’s a white duck with long skinny legs.
we found a new place to take photos on this drive. it was a parking lot made into a half size ghost town.
the kids weren’t so much into picture taking but man i got some favorites.
i will share them now……… i keep looking at these two photos and saying”if only T was making eye contact…if only…its almost one of those perfect photos you want on canvas.

oh and this is my favorite outtake from the day. i have no idea what they were laughing at but it was funny.

these two are as close as bread and butter, they adore each other.

let me pause here and say when i got the boys dressed and approved JJ’s attire i was planning on these photos being all black and white. i had already made up my mind that the last photos of 2008 were going to be timeless black and whites. i was SO WRONG!!! they turned out to be all color…why? because i am too lazy to edit tonight. maybe at a later date i will open them in PS to do more than size.

OMGOSH…..LOCK her up, would you….i mean shes only 12 but really, get the shot gun and shackles.

Now my favorite of the day..well, not my favorite because they are all my favorites but man i got myself some awesome children.

i am always telling them if they can’t keep their hands to themselves to put them in their pockets…
it always works.

Better…

this is what i hope for 2009 as we say goodbye to 2008.
2008 was a sucky year and i hope that suckiness doesn’t creep too far into 2009.
some suckiness will happen in 2009 but by the second month i am hoping to put it behind me…us.
i want to breathe again…..
i have already booked my first session for 2009, this is a good start.
2008 is when i found out what a panic attack was…WOW…those pretty much suck.
i worried more than ever in 2008, it was the year of stress.
yep, 2008 will forever be known to me as the year of stress.
in 2008 i sent my oldest to middle school and my youngest to preschool.
mr fun and i celebrated 12 years of marriage,for better or for worse
i started doing daycare again after a 4 year break
G FINALLY learned to tie his shoe
Wy learned to ride a 2 wheeler
JJ proved that she can get straight A’s in middle school and still have fun
T learned to pedal on his trike instead of doing it like the flintstones
i traveled more this year than ever before. i got to visit FL,WA,CT,NV and NY
i also completed 365 self portraits

though 2008 was such a sucky year i am still blessed, this i know
CHEERS to 2009…..get your party on!

from yesterday… a photo…from today…library rambling

aren’t these boys cute? SO cute if you ask me. they were laughing because G was being too serious so i said “pretend like you farted” sure enough they all cracked up. i don’t always get boy humor but use it to my advantage when needed.

today was the day i had been putting off for a very long time, too long now that i actually did it.
we went to the library, not the library near our house though. that one sucks. it used to be an AWESOME library. when we first moved here they had just finished the children area and it was bright and open with colorful chairs and tons of books. about 18 months ago they closed the other part of the library off and all that adult crap invaded this colorful warm bright happy place. where did this leave the kids? with a small dark conference room with half the books, no little people sized tables and chairs. just books. now how is this fair or even smart? so we stopped going because it was actually depressing to walk in and see the north side all boarded up with a fake wall and then have to walk through boring adult books to get to a tiny room with hardly any books to choose from.

Wy got this special library card with a dragon on it just for 1st graders. when you check out books you get prizes. so he has been hounding me to go to the library. this card was not accepted at the library by our house because this card was for phoenix city libraries and our library is a maricopa county library. they like to make it confusing on purpose to see how many people walk into a library with a library card that doesn’t work at that certain library but will if you go to the one a 7 miles further down the road.
so ANYWAYS!! we did it. i packed the kids up and traveled to the library that is not 1 mile from my home but almost 10. that’s far for me.
i walked in and i fell in love. the area is open and the light rocks. i was kicking myself for not having my camera. we will be going back on friday just so i can get some photos.
we also checked out some videos that were free, our other library charges $2. redbox is even cheaper so why would i go to the library?
i also have to say that the people working the front desk at this library are WAAAAY better than our old library. these women had smiles and didn’t mind answering question after question. they tolerated the anxious children while i filled in papers for our new library cards as if one didn’t keep running away and one wasn’t hanging on my leg whining about something or everything.
so the conclusion to this rambling post is that my kids will see the inside of a library more often now that we found a good one.

i was going to post photos…

all four of my boys wore beanies today. they all looked precious.
i will not be posting them because CS3 seems to think it doesn’t have to respond,like it’s one of children or something, when i go to size them.
i have tried three times and walked away so i don’t throw the pc through the window
please don’t say get a mac
i don’t want a mac
i had two macs
threw them out the window too because it’s all ass backwards and i never could get use to it.
so please don’t mention how great macs are or i will delete your comment, yes i will, it’s my blog.
and those mac commercials….not funny…ANNOYING as hell and they are on every 2 seconds, puke.
mr. fun is in there trying to fix it because he knows a happy wife is key to a happy house,lol.
i did get one photo done and it was the one i wasn’t going to post because it sucks..not the subject, he’s adorable.

so you get one sucky photo for now. ENJOY!!!

things that i think about….

why do we have legs on the wii but the computer doesn’t? makes me want to stick my finger in the tv and try to knock them over. i don’t think i would though because they are weeble wobbles reincarnated. yes, they are.

ham, can mr. fun really eat that much ham? i am not sure how he ate that much but he did. he didn’t eat pie though, LOL!!! pumpkin pie bought from the bakery is NOT as good as sara lee’s. not even close. why were all the pumpkin pies gone on christmas eve anyways? doesn’t the store compensate for us who procrastinate. we can’t all be planners with lists.

if you didn’t put up lights for the holiday, why the heck not? don’t you know my kids look forward to looking at happy decorated houses after christmas dinner? come on people, do it for the children.
now that christmas is over it is time to take them down though. i always take my tree down the day after but it’s still up and its making me antsy. the boxes are up in the attic and i try not to go up there unless i absolutely have to.

where do my kids get their rhythm from? it isn’t me and it isn’t mr. fun. somehow they got rhythm though.

P.S. we are all sore…..so sore yet we all boxed and bowled again today.

Merry Day :) Merry Merry Happy Fun Super!!

the huckleberries are happy content children this morning. they love everything but pretty sure the favorite gift is the wii…yes, the wii. our xbox crapped out last week and the inlaws came through with the wii. how cool are my inlaws? pretty dang cool!! like john travolta in the 70’s cool.
pretty certain that they will all wake with sore arms from bowling and golfing.


3 am came early this morning, G came to our bed crying and upset. blankets and webkinz in hand. he curled up next me and told me he had a bad dream. a bear was chasing him and killed him, can you die in your dreams? i didn’t sleep much after that. before i knew it it was after 6 and wy climbed on the bed putting his ice cold feet on my warm legs saying santa didn’t bring anything big this year. i got on him for peeking and told him to go back to sleep. after this i was awake….the boys quiet and still. i got up made coffee at 6:50. tried to go back to bed, the boys then asked if they could watch TV in our room while we waited for JJ and T to wake. a little after 7 i sent G to wake T and Wy to wake JJ.
i went to help G wake T and as i picked a very sleepy boy up from his bed he says with a crackling voice ” i stayed awake” . G and i got a good chuckle from that, he’s so cute :)

i am jealous of one gift and that is what santa brought JJ

yep, i want my own ipod, a nano to be exact. its so light and so cute. i do not want pink though, i want orange.

the gifts that are going to annoy me most and make me curse are the bakugons BUT the boys are in bakugon heaven for sure.

Merry Christmas Eve!!!

i hope that today brings joy and happiness full of wonderful memories to look back on.
i told the kids we had computer time until 10 am and then we have to clean this pig sty of a house.
jj comes home today, i am excited.
i have no clue as to what we are eating the next two days.
nothing fancy because we aren’t fancy people.
comfort comes first
this is the first christmas eve were mr. fun isn’t closing the store in a LONG time. i am so super excited that there is a possibility that he will be home before dinner time.
we have a busy night ahead of us. gingerbread train must be made, one present must be opened and there is christmas lights out there waiting to be awwed and ooohed over.

CHEERS!!!!

yesterday we were out shopping and the conversation i overheard warmed my heart and made me think that maybe i am doing something slightly right when it comes to raising these kids.
T~ please is the magic word at school
Wy~what about thank you?
T~no, just please is the magic word
Wy~ but you should always says please and thank you
T~ and excuse me
Wy~ yep, please, thank you and excuse me are very important words and you should always use them.
T~ that’s right

how sweet are those two? super sticky bun sweet.

ranting and spitting

seriously? is this what my life has become? have my kids really deteriorated into disrespectful spawns?
WHEN???
it is currently 10:46 am and all they have done is whine, fight, talk back, not listen and drive me insane.
today is a day i want to run away to vegas and spend a couple days wandering the streets taking photos. no children of my own to whine at me and cause my blood pressure to raise until fire shoots out my ears and my head spins around.
their rooms look as if they threw up and i am not cleaning it. i am putting all contents in trash bags and placing them in the garage. i am done with the mess. DONE! if they can’t put their toys and books back where they go i am not going to waste another day organizing it all.
i wish i was in a better place, it being 2 days before christmas…. i’m not. i am tired of the mess, tired of children not listening, tired of the stress, tired of working through panic attacks, TIRED!! i go to bed tired and i wake up tired.

merry effin’ christmas!!!!!!!!!!!

So close

christmas is so close. i have done nothing this season. i didn’t take photos or make cards. i didn’t even think about teacher gifts. i barely decorated the house, the kids took care of that. i went shopping once,only once for a few hours and bought very little. i don’t want anything this year but to be able to put money stress behind us. that is all i want. i want to want to answer my phone when it rings and i want to enjoy getting the mail again instead of stressing ove what i am going to find.

yeah a new camera,lens and tripod would be nice but in the grand scheme of things those things aren’t important to me. i want to be a better mom, one that can take her kids to lunch and to the park without fighting off a panic attack. i want to be able to go to the store and buy candy canes and sprinkles and let the kids dip candy canes in chocolate and sprinkle colorful holiday sprinkles all over them. i want to make christmas trees out of cones and frosting. this year we aren’t doing these things. this year i am counting down the days for it to be over not for it to get here.
jj is out in cali with her cousin right now and won’t be back until christmas eve so maybe its better that i didn’t plan all the above things.
i am sitting here waiting for my mom to call after her appt. she fell and is really bruised up and i am worried for her.

i promise my next post will be happier and merry. maybe even have some photos of smiling children or maybe some christmas thingamabobs.

Let me say this…..

i am blessed
sometimes it’s hard to see
i don’t always see it
i get frustrated
i feel sorry for myself
the truth is i have it better than a lot
i am loved
loved by many
i need to work harder
i need to love more
i am blessed
my children are healthy
they all have great schools to attend
we have a roof over our heads
we have a safe vehicle to drive
the rest will fall into place
i have AWESOME friends
friends that don’t judge

everything is going to be fine fine fine

AJAXed with AWP